you could distinguish miles from coltrain

11.13.02back& forth
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you know yesterday, when i was sitting under the trees reading spanish poetry and laughing about the way he looked like a sine curve, all stretched out on the benches. how you told me you followed me to school, how you smiled all through the back roads following the path i had made. how you thought it was such a good way, because of x y and z.

my hair was perfectly straight, like usual. long. and the sun was behind your big eyes smiling widely at me, how you asked about my next class and sat close next to me.

well tonight, looking at her perfect cheekbones. i grabbed her arm and told her i couldn.t believe she was leaving next year, and that i.d miss her. because i will, and i miss her like i miss you. more everytime we.re together. maybe that.s a lie. maybe i don.t know how to define what missing you is, is going to be like. maybe i want to get over missing you while you.re still here. maybe this won.t make much sense, but i know what i mean. and that.s beginning to mean something.

i like being friends with you, boy. listening to your mixtape is really hard for me though, especially when it.s night time and dark and i have to leave early and go home alone because of all this work. breakaway, i felt so vulnerable on the road. ps it started getting really cold today. i had my parka and lots of sweaters, cute socks and shoes and i had to go swimming in a thunderstorm and.....

i almost wish i had more time and tears for you.


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