herestonoexcuses: heylove, see all the notes on this page. these tears in our eyes. love. i will cry if you leave forever i am crying now and i will feel stupid for loving so much and in that same instant i will know that there is never too much love no matter what contradicts it; i will read your words over and over and i'll remember reading them when i didn't know half of who i was who i am who i'm going to be but there is just too much love its overwhelming - you know what i mean - so many thoughts thrown to the wind in all these white pages and black ink, thrown to the air &back across the sky across waves &wires and it's good that it's there and it's good that we've been there and have a trace of it running through us, smallest traces in new skin; i'll know love in all the corners of the earth; he&you&i&he&all-together the love the love and the love. you were my magic in hell too darling, growing up, girl progression heartraces heartchases, we were there and it was love and i know i'll never forget it, in the best of ways, in exactly how it was. and tears come when those threads &traces hit our hearts in just the right way, moving in unconscious poetric streams, and the song plays (hey mister in that shirt could you be giving me directions..<3<3) and then the room is still and the window is open and we're sailing around the room in our heads remembering. and we deal with this all in our own ways, i sit and spin and write, i dance and i dream and i do, and i keep in touch with people like you that matter for these very same reasons that take me to the curtains billowing and the glass reflecting and the song playing in the first place. living&loving&leaving&loving these loves and their lives and how when tiny fingers playing on open pianos, baby grand, cold hands held together for warmth and. those paragraphs of hello and thisismekeepingintouch and letshearallaboutyourday. to live free, free in the forever-love that we make life, and that that same life, that same love, is free with us-- well then we hold hands &kiss each other on the cheek &say this has all been wonderful, and now i'm on my way. iloveyou &am sososo happy for you. send a line through the wires every once &a while, ♥.

and today, when we were saying byefornow, i said iloveyou and i didn't plan it, it just came quick and natural and i smiled and that's the way it's been. <3


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