feel like i got punched in the gut right now. cycling between sad and angry and trying to not be passive aggressive and teary and surprised. and it's bringing up some other not so pretty things - vulnerability, isolation, envy, anger.

i hate feeling hurt and i hate talking about it and it's something i am trying to be better about - communicating when i'm hurt. time to step back and sleep and not say things i'll regret.

and focus on the good things - court in the morning, taskforce meetings, spending time with interesting and powerful people. and being patient with my feelings - they're not facts, i can feel them and move past them. i don't even need a therapy session - i got this. writing it down; now - next.


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