on writing to remember
02.20.13back&
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You know, they straightened out the Mississippi River in places, to make room for houses and livable acreage. Occasionally the river floods these places. �Floods� is the word they use, but in fact it is not flooding; it is remembering. Remembering where it used to be. All water has a perfect memory and is forever trying to get back to where it was. Writers are like that: remembering where we were, that valley we ran through, what the banks were like, the light that was there and the route back to our original place. It is emotional memory.
� Toni Morrisonthis weekend we talked about selfishness and beginnings and drank cider and i made pizza and we danced in kitchen.
"you are the most incredible person i have ever met," he says. and it feels good, but sometimes i fight to believe it.
"my brain is not being nice right now."
things i want to remember:
i'll just let you be for a little because i know how that feels sometimes when there's nothing anyone can do, come here and give me a hug, i'd never do anything to purposely hurt you, telling me stories late late into the night, you'd like it there because it's right on the water and we can go camping, a star chart and primary colors and bunk beds versus a loft, a red rug and a corner desk that's not a corner desk, and feeling very warm and falling asleep easily.
vaulting metro conversations and i want to look at you and i've never done that before and what kind of hikes do you like and would you like to go on a hike with me and commuting together and a bruise on my lip and your thrills at handprints.
tonight i am going to sleep forever.
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