i lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvvve him. the way he smells. which is of clean laundry. and how he has paint permenantly on his shorts. and how he shakes his head and moves and mumbles. his mumbling is hte cutest thing. now i do it too, and it makes him smilexsmile. and be like, HEY in the quietest voice. and how he doesnt pull away. and how i can look up during assembly and see him walking around or playing with the lights {tech theatre}. and how i can laugh about how incredibly difficult math is and look at his drawings.

when bad things happen, i think of him. when i feel like i'm not being myself, i think of him. when i feel pressured into being materialistic, i think of him. and today, i felt such an attraction to him. i didnt want to leave being near him.

he's just.....great. maybe i should tell him, or something. and he doesnt have a girlfriend! and im not even thinking like that. but its like, i cannnnnn be friendxfriendly with him with more confidence. or something.

ahhhhhhhhhh. hes so great.


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