passing through unconscious states

01.01.03back& forth
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and its True:
i never
say Anything
to make you wonder
whether you
should say
you.re sorry

and its True:
that you.re there
a lyric now
(left&leaving)
and i don.t go online for someone like that
i don.t answer my phone for someone like that
not to mention i was busy doing things
more important than thinking of you
not to mention i have shit to do and an appointment on thursday and
(funny. no more '(no number)' because i told you you.re the only one who does that so i know its you, so it spells out your name and the time and)
(funny. so now you have some sort of what. excuse? 'oh, but i called' am i going to have to tell you that it.s ok to leave a message. i.m almost. almost sorry i missed your call just because i would have loved to see you deal with my angry silence. but you.re not worth it. so, i.m not used to this because my friends don.t do this to me, don.t leave me hanging like that. they call and they care and they make me understand how the gifts i get daily are better than any mix fucking cd or whatever. that.s more than i can say for you.)


its like. i want to type:
mostly
i.m not sorry and
you.re much too late dear

but really i am sort of sorry
i wish all sorts of things, but
no more wish i may
no more wish you might
you.re much too late dear
but we.ll see what happens.


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