no.

2. How old were you the first time you got drunk? Where was it?
What happened?

hmm.. alcohol was never a very big deal to me or my family. as early as thirteen i was traveling all over europe drinking wine - it would take a glass or two and i'd be tipsy. in panama we had lots of drinks at quinces - i remember hating rum & coke because they made them so strong at the club! i think my first "let's drink to get ridiculously drunk" was probably somewhere late in highschool. my parents never made alcohol a big deal, so it was never a big deal for me to drink.

3. Which is worse--- betraying a friend or betraying one's country? Why?

how deep a betrayal are we talking?

4. When was your first time to smoke pot? Where were you? What happened? Did you like it? Will you do it again?

hahahhahahahahha. oh. good story. i never wanted to smoke, i was completely against it for years & years, and then at some point freshman year of college i decided i wanted to try it. so i did. one of my best friends smoked probably four times a day, needless to say, she was really fucking excited to hear about this. she wanted me to try smoking every way - so a bunch of our friends hung out, and smoked a couple joints, from a bong, a one-hitter. then we went to the marketplace to eat! haha. i wasn't really high that first time, but believe me i made up for it later. a, c, s & i used to smoke together all the time. i loved feeling relaxed & silly & grounded & happy. i tried it because i had great people around me, and i kept smoking with them because we always had fun. all of us besides s don't really smoke anymore. the last couple times i have smoked have just made me unhappy, paranoid, panicky, et al. it's just not worth the risk to me anymore, plus, it makes me kind of depresssed. i don't see myself doing it ever again, unless with the right people at the right time at a time that there would be no risks and no responsibility. which is pretty basically never.

5. Ever tried coke, Ecstasy, acid? Where were you? What happened? What did each do for/to you?

no, but shrooms a couple of time. again, with some of my favorite people in the world. i was in north carolina, running around the gardens at night, laughing and dancing and rolling down hills. one night we actually had cops tell us to be careful because there could be bad people doing drugs in the gardens at night.. ha.

6. What's the most embarrassing thing your parents ever caught you doing? What happened? How old were you? How did they punish you?

um, probably when my parents found pot & my piece in my bedroom. my mom refused to talk about it, and my dad just had a talk with me about risk and responsibility and the fact that having it could totally fuck up the future that i wanted. he was actually really cool about it. then he stepped on my piece :( and threw it in the garbage.

7. Ever deliberately become drunk/high to justify sex? What happened? How drunk/high did you need to get?

haha. well, there were certainly times where i would not have hooked up with someone but for the fact i was drunk/high at the time.

8. Ever had webcam sex? With whom? Did you already know them?

no. creepy.

9. Ever deliberately run a sailing ship aground for the insurance money?.

i'll never tell.

10. When was your last time to drunk-dial someone? What did you talk about?

hmm probably sometime last year. i tend to not call people when i'm drunk because i'm usually in good company :) but yea, i used to call people and tell them i loved them/say hi/play them music.

11. What do family and friends most hold against you from your Past?

family: my sleeping habits, procrastinating. friends: hm. all i can really think of is not communicating when i've been upset with them/the situation.

12. Do you have revenge fantasies? About whom? Have you ever acted on them?

no.

13. What "typical" Bad Behaviours did you engage in as a teen? Did you smoke in high school? At university? What was your favourite brand? How many packs a week?

i didn't really pull the whole sex drugs rock n roll bit til college. eighteen, nineteen, twenty - cigarettes, alcohol, pot. we used to smoke turkish golds & turkish silvers.

15. Ever trade sex for drugs or money? How much money would tempt you? Would you take a check?

no, a lot, no.

16. If you cheated on a Significant Other and knew they'd never find out, would you feel guilt? Would you forgive them for cheating on you?

relationships are a big deal to me; i've considered what other people would call relationships as just dating people, therefore, dating other people or hooking up with other people has never been cheating.

feeling guilty? totally depends.
forgiving someone for cheating on me? hmm. very unlikely that i would. fuck that.

17. How often do you find yourself identifying closely with Dexter Morgan?

i am too tired to google him. so, not at all.

18. Which would've been worse for you at 15 or 16--- caught having sex or caught shoplifting from an expensive boutique?

either would have been very bad.

19. Have you ever lied to keep a friend from serious trouble with the authorities? Lied to cover up a friend's romantic indiscretions?

i'm a very good secret keeper.
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