so.

no dread when i'm waking up in the morning, and it's ten am, and it's sunny and beautiful outside but i don't want to leave.
that incessant pressing on my chest, anxiety, anxiety, anxiety,

the desire to get drunk in love, in laughter, in sex-- i just Dont Care.
De-pression, probably, back for a fun spell in my life.
Spring! Flowers! and the worst allergies and low grade migraines of all time, days x days x days.(

i want to get a dog and a plane flight and another cartier watch to replace what was lost.
i just want to press fast forward, to August and Everything After.

but first:
maine. firefly. beaching. california, yeeehaw. SF. yosemite.

life, one day at a time.)


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